I suppose I should write!
Its 1st of May, four months of this year gone. Not so bad if you ask me, in fact not bad at all. Its after 9 p.m. I just had dinner, not the best Chinese rice I’ve had but I am used to the food now.
Tomorrow will be another day. I think I have gotten used to this life pretty well and lord knows I took my time. Its Shan’s farewell party tonight and to think it was four years ago I pushed the baby of our family to leave home and start studying in Karachi. To think, he’s all grown up and graduating now.
Three months from now inshaAllah, I’ll be graduating from the academy. I hope all my family can come to my passing out and yes! That means him as well. He’s said he will probably not be able to make it and even if he could, in what capacity can he come? :)
I have actually started playing a pretty decent game of tennis. I am actually a finalist in this term’s main event. The final I think is on Thursday. I played the semi-final yesterday and even though we won, I hurt my back during the game so no practice today.
I went shopping the other day for my dad’s birthday present. Bought a tie for him. Bhai tells me he got a couple of ties for him as well. And to think abu retires in four years inshaAllah. The last thing he probably wants now is another tie. But its easier to send from Lahore.
I miss home. I really do. It never ceases to amaze me, how my life has changed. I know it always changes, ever day, every minute. Maybe I’ve become more sensitive to changes. My friends have moved on to their lives, I have moved on with mine.
Change is inevitable!
We’re being taught the art of decision making, but its more like science. I think some of the best decisions I have made in my life were completely reckless but they worked for me alhumdulilah. Going to Lebanon to cover the war was one of them. But when I think about it, it didn’t employ these methods of making a decision tree, even swaps, preference analysis etc. I think Allah helped me and I did alright without these.
Sherin and I have developed an addiction for Supernatural. Jensen Ackles is soooooooooooooooo cute! We both think so ;)
I’m going to miss sherin. I know I have had great friends before but I have never actually lived with anyone. Never shared a living space with anyone like I have with sherin. I think she’s a great girl. I’m really going to miss her. I hope she finds a great guy with a moustache!
Its been two years. Yes! I haven’t stopped counting. I wish I could!
My parents desperately want me married now. And I have played the good girl. I met all the people they wanted me to meet, all the guys I’ll probably never see again nor do I want to. Have smiled and put my head down when all I wanted to do was get up and leave. I have had my hands inspected, the cut of my neckline examined. If I didn’t know better, I’d think I was a sheep! And I am so tired now…so tired!
I found this picture that I love. It reminds me of a good day almost a year back when I was just me. Plain and simple. No agendas, no worries. I miss that day, I miss that beach, the wind, the water, and I miss saddy.
